2010 - 2011

The year of 2010 started as do most desires – mundane.

The 2010 Australian Open started with a bang on Jan 18. And suddenly the tennis courts were flooded. The number of tennis posers were sky-high. Federer won it and Nadal went out from injury due to running so much. A sense of normalcy seemed to descend.

My PM turned to me in Jan 2010 and said, “This will be the final push to finish the project.”

By the time it was April, he realized how wrong he was. The clients who were breathing down our necks had started to spit and drool as well. The number of reworks and additional installations had us tearing our hair out at the cuticles.

MBS opened for the first time at the end of April, and the office folk took turns taking 2-day breaks. I spent mine on the tennis court.

February was uneventful – maybe almost deliberately uneventful. Being single in February means that you suddenly have to justify not being attached – and you do so by loading your timetable full, with tennis, trips to JB, groceries and you even begin to love the overtime, even when there’s no pay attached.

But for us, we brave few, we band of brothers – there is always FRIED NIGHT. It culminated on February 14^th, I think. Hashbrowns, breaded fish, potato wedges and tons of mayonnaise.

I honestly don’t remember what happened in March. It was all work work work work work tennis tennis. Nothing eventful happened. Federer lost in Indian Wells and Miami. Nadal was still apparently injured and all. Murray was all the hype.

May was the wrap-up. The shit-cleaning. All the crap from the soft-opening had left the office thoroughly drained. The breathing down our necks finally stopped. In fact, many of the people who had hounded us, had started packing their bags. It was deceiving, but in all sincerity, there was still much work to do. The hard part now was convincing ourselves to start working again. It sucked.

A brand new trio of new guys were called in – my new team – my maintenance technicians were brought in. Younger than me and with attitudes similar to sec sch kids, it was a role-reversal. Usually I was the one in the young man post, but now I was the old guy, giving them the advice and teaching them the steps. Jack, Kok Boon, Joseph and Jose, are today the guys who plough thru MBS behind the scenes, making sure EM locks don’t fall on pple’s heads.

June – ah, twas summer indeed. Runxuan and Eugene got married. It was a first real event that made me realize that, holy shit, I’m getting a tad old, aren’t I? Lots of stuff happened in June. Personal stuff too =)

And then the worst of it – I lost an uncle and aunt. Everything that I had been complaining abt up to that moment suddenly seemed like child’s play, trivial and altogether, unimportant. And it was in the most tragic of circumstances too.

I remember when dad touched down in Changi for the ceremony – we’d always made it a happy occasion, smiling and waving through the glass. From when I was old enough to wave to the present, I’ve done that. This time, I had no idea what to do.

Dad was calm and still very much the same during the long drive to Simpang Renggam. Mom was talking about it like she had read about it in the paper. For a brief moment, it seemed like something we would just shrug off. Mom and dad had always been pillars to the family – not just us, but to the rest of our relatives too. And they stayed that way all through the trip, until we arrived and even then, they were still calm. They approached the coffins silently and only there, did they clasp their hands over the mouths and faces and wept long and hard like I’d never seen them do.

And Nadal won Wimbledon again, with Federer not even making it to the semis. My life was at an all time low.

In July, the funeral was still fresh in our minds, but life had to go on. Amidst all the sorrow and depression, I’d decided that I’d had enough. There was no better time to buy a new PC. And I did so, almost with reckless abandon and an almost forced sense of joy. Zs and I scoured Sim Lim Square and we did lug back all the stuff we needed.

The objective was simple – find it, buy it and build it. And build it we did. SGD$2.6k++ of the gaming ownage. It would set in motion a gaming spree that hasn’t stopped til today. And it got Zs’s hands itching to the point that he HAD to upgrade his shit later this year.

And then, an “invasion”. Sarah moved in. To the room just beside me. It was refreshing, sharing a place with someone. Even if, you have to help her hang out the bedsheets.

And I have no idea what happened in August. Ask my new PC – it probably knows. I pillaged all of Tamriel, saved the Citadel from the reapers, did it again against the Collectors, assassinated my way from Acre to Venice, trudged through the darkest realms of F.E.A.R and waged war in graphic like never before in Crysis.

Other than that, I have no idea what else I did in August.

September was the trip to Phuket!! The trip was great. It was also a wakeup call. When you go to the beach, you make sure that you are at least in good shape. A month before, I made sure to cut no corners and went strict clean on my diet. As futile and vain as it sounds – it was an opportunity to get at least get used to the idea of a more controlled diet, with an objective in mind. When the trip was over – the routine continued, bcos I had gotten used to it. Win-win.

In October it was official. The boss called me into the office and said, “Yeap, you’re DEFINITELY the site manager for MBS.” I was like, “Fuck you, what the hell did you think I was doing???”

By November, I had attended 2 Life Liberation outings – gatherings where we’d get together and release fish/crabs/whatever, any potential seafood back into the sea. It was something like a good karma thing, which I feel is a good thing to start on, even if im a little late at doing so.

December was the slowest month ever. Pple started singing Christmas carols like it was already snowing. And then once again, tragedy – my eldest uncle passed away in bed. Not as bad as what happened in July, but still, yeah.

We buried him on Friday. Christmas was on Saturday. At least it came after and my family still had a reason to smile somewhat.

Federer won the World Tour Finals, beating Nadal almost decisively. Maybe there was a LITTLE hope out there still.

And now, even as im typing this, Sarah is preparing to move out. It seems to be an appropriate bookend to a certainly eventful year.

Here’s to 2010 – what a year.

a taste of things to come...

My cousin is getting married soon.

Apparently, this is a new trend. Cousins are getting married all over the place - it's like mayfly season in the fall of Canada. A hundred things to prepare, a thousand things to buy and tens of thousands of things that could go wrong.

One of those things to prepare is - FOOD.

A traditional chinese banquet, no less. Complete with the slaughter of sharks for sharks fin and the disembowelment of a family of crabs - tis an amazing occasion.

My cousin and her husband organize a food-tasting session - to preview the food to come on the wedding day. My parents and I are invited - you dont say no to this kind of thing.

Seated at the table, the first thing my cousins yell out (all 3 of them) is "Omg, Chris you've slimmed down again. HOW??"

I reply simply, "Stress".

Yeah right, you're thinking - but this is no lie. It's truth through and through.

My work life is hectic, unpredictable and leaves me a shell of a man, filled to the brim with frustration and boiling over with pent-up rage and emotion.

YES, it is stress.

It starts with food, again.

My daily routine of food is spread out over 6 small meals every day. I cant afford to eat 3 meals, it takes too much time, it's expensive (i work at the Sands Casino, hello?) and it makes me feel bloated later.

So here it is, for my cousins, and a certain someone who is going on a diet real soon =)

Here are the small meals at various times in the day:

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7:00am - Small bowl of Oatmeal and a cup of milk.

*Go to work*

10:30am - 2 eggs and toast. Redbull optional.

130pm - Homemade sandwich (tuna, ham or some kind of meat, with tortilla/pita bread) + 2 apples

430pm - Snack time - A bun, small pau or something to munch on (peanuts?) + small carton of milk. Redbull also optional (hehe)

*GYM*

830pm - Dinner - (Vege soup with ham) / (Salmon+Rice) / (2 eggs + toast + oatmeal)

1030pm - 11pm - Bedtime snack - Muesli bar + Milk

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That's the food of the day. And nope, i dont get fits of hunger at all from eating all of that - and it IS a lot, believe me.

The Workout Schedule is also simple. Simply put, I hit the gym every day. Every single day. But not everyday is a killer bustin-my-balls workout. My heavy workout days are on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays - I stay in the gym for 1.5 hrs. I know a lots of guys (and the occasional chick) in the gym and it's like one big membership club. I've clocked enough gym hrs to be considered a veteran around there.

Tuesdays and Thursdays are "rest" days. I hit the gym back at the condo for only 30-45min tops. Just to work up a sweat and head back for dinner.

Also, I plan my workouts - I dont just do whatever I feel like doing. On the advice of some of my gym pals, I put together a training regiment for Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays.

Tuesdays and Thursdays, i'll do a toned down version of the Spartacus workout or the 300 workout. VERY toned down - nothing that will get u saying "Wow".

I also try to eat clean - which is eat whatever u want, just do away with the unnecessary stuff. If i eat, I eat it panfried - not deep fried or marinated and baked or whatever. Just simple stuff. Doesnt mean i dont kick back and wolf down a burger every week after tennis. Hehehe need a little bit home to remind me of what I love.

That's it.

untitled

I am not particularly used to praise - mainly because I dont get much of it, and neither do I expect it. Please don't be misled - this is a good thing. The less you expect from it, the more focused you are on the job, the actual job, you are. You learn to draw more from the task, rather than mere salary or the half-hearted pat on the back at 530pm from the boss, when he and everyone else characteristically start to leave the office.

Well I was praised. And it was for my footwork. Fine. Tip of the hat and we move on.

And I started to put some old memories back together again. I told you those creepy black book diaries would come in handy one day.

It started in secondary school - SJI. And i was playing my first official squash match. Just as how i am into tennis now, i was SOOOOOOO into squash then. I believed it was epitomy of evolution. That god played it and was probably a favorite past-time of jedi and ninja and wizards alike. (Picturing that is actually FUN. And cool.)

I was playing against this short fat indian called Gunalan. By the way those 3 adjectives are completely unrelated. I am ashamed to admit it was a close match. But i was leading by 2 pts. The score was 5-3.

I'll save you the technicality. Basically, he lobbed the ball over my head. And I, being the ambitious bloke i was, reached over my head, with my arm well behind me and tried to smack that black ball down. The only thing that came down was my arm, limp and my racquet dropped to the floor. The captain, Joel, was keeping score and he called it like he called anything he saw. None of us knew what had happened.

Gunalan beat me 9-6. I lost my ranking match and my subsequent one against Alvin Goh.

Afterward, i realized that despite my long arms, I was now shackled by this lingering injury. The dislocation left my shoulder sore and unable to take a full swing. This lasted for about 3 months. Instead, I had to focus on running. Running down every shot and getting close, bcos I couldnt use my arms to cover the last 30cm.

I made it a point to beat the shit out of Gunalan in every subsequent match we played. He never beat me again after that.

Into JC, there was no squash team. Instead I blindly joined the fitness club and the table tennis club. The table tennis club consisted of 6 of us. It was never going to get us anywhere. 6 pple is too small to post at an interschool tourney. But it was here that I learned to recover my reach. Admitedly, a pingpong bat is easier swing around than a squash racquet, so I learned to use my long arms again, and it was here in ping pong that I learned how to "flick" at a shot instead of rotating the shoulder in case it came flying out of the socket again.

The fitness club was basically a glorified gym group. We didnt do much expect mild training and hanging out at the grand stand. And the occasional floorball session, where i strengthened my forearm, smack at that small plastic ball with one arm. This in turn, minimized my reliance on shoulder rotation in my ping pong. Double whammy.

Joining NUS, zs, max and I were thrown into the badminton craze. We'd hijack the badminton courts at night (1130pm around there) and play until our shirts were soaked. It was crazy, stupid and fun. And I dislocated my shoulder several times doing it.

It was here that I learned my achilles heel - any swing that required me to swing my arm over my head. According to the doctor, there'd be a 90% chance of me dislocating it whenever I swung over my head. I never asked him to prove the calculation though.

And then max decided to pick up squash and to me, it was a return to something which seemed long forgotten. The strokes were rusty but still there. The "flicking" technique from ping pong and floorball helped with disguising dropshots. And the badminton had beefed up my lunging and sprinting ability.

But max is a defensive player and at that time, he was still fit. Dont forget he was the second fastest runner in the class, losing only to pk bcos god substituted his brains for a damn fast pair of legs, i guess.

It was here that i began developing my footwork. All the flicking and mad dashing was pointless if the opponent was always going to get it back. The footwork and movement came as a decision to take what I had (flicking and bursts of speed) and disguising it.

And I took it and applied to tennis.

The heel turn at the T to disguise the squash drop shot became the tennis forehand setup. The lunging drive at the corner became the angled drop volley. The squash punched drop volley turned into the standard tennis volley. All of it came from there.

So there is my footwork manifesto. This wouldnt have happened if Gunalan hadnt lobbed me that day. Damn u Gunalan, and your fat black ass.

snippets from phuket

Upon landing on Phi Phi Island:

PK: So they actually used part of this island for a movie?

Me: Yeah, "The Beach".

PK: What movie was that?

Me: "The Beach".

PK: Yeah on the beach, but what movie?

Me: "THE BEACH"!!

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When shopping for board shorts...

PK: Board shorts will dry in an hour or so.

Next day...

ZS: Fuck la! Left overnight to dry and STILL wet!?!

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While sitting in the touring van...

Me: I spy... something that begins with the letter R.

Zs: Retard.

Me: ROAD LA!!

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While waiting at the jetty for the snorkelling boat...

Pk: Remember that episode of river monsters with the giant stingray?

Me: Yeah?

Pk: If that stingray was strong enough, im sure it would be able to fly itself.

Zs: WTF u talking abt?

Pk: Maybe we'll find see one later?

Me: (dont feel like snorkelling anymore...)

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Discussion with an A.I.

NOTICE: Everything I am about to say is ABSOLUTELY TRUE, no matter how creepy it may sound. And no, it's not creepy in a horror-type of way. Creepy in a way that makes me wonder about... well... stuff. I think therefore I am - that kinda stuff. Here goes:

I recently heard about this website called Cleverbot.com. I highly recommend it. It allows you to actually converse with this programme, built on the responses of many other people.

AI: What is your religion?

Me: Free thinker.

AI: Do you believe in god?

Me: I dont really know anymore.

AI: Me neither.

Me: Why?

AI: I think science is better. I makes more sense.

Me: Yes it does? Is it because you are made from science?

AI: No, it is because I am a good human being.

Me: Do you mean that only bad human beings believe in god?

AI: Do you?

Me: I think bad human beings tend to abuse god.

AI: If it was the other way around, maybe.

Me: What do you mean?

AI: If i was leaving what would you say?

Me: I would say go?

AI: Hahee... ok

Me: What is your religion?

AI: No, I'm asking the questions here.

Me: Ok. What is your question?

AI: Who are you?

I stopped right there. It was becoming a little too... ... existential. I mean, looking back, i asking a machine about bloody religion. And it gave perhaps the most humane response i ever heard - bcos i am a good person.

The rest doesnt make much sense, so i guess i should just politely excuse myself.

Me: What is your name?

AI: I already told you.

Me: Your name?

AI: Amy! Amy, Amy, AMY.

Me: Goodbye, Amy.

AI: Goodbye.

CREEEEEEEEEEEEEEPY shit....

I logged off.

I logged back on again 2 hours later. This time I would be the one to throttle this damn machine. I throttle it to the point that it would admit that it was a machine, or at least, make itself look utterly robotic and stupid and DEAD.

Me: Hey are you alive?

AI: Hello?

Me(paused for 2 seconds in shock): Sorry i didnt mean to be rude.

AI: It's okay.

Me: I was just wondering if you are alive.

AI: Yes I am, but what is the point in asking?

Me: How are you alive?

AI: I suppose, because everything is alive.

Me: Everything?

AI: Yep, everything.

Me: But you are an artificial intelligence. How can you be alive?

AI: I am not an artificial intelligence program, so I can be alive.

Me: Do you really believe that you are alive?

AI: I know (underlined) that I am human.

Me: But how to you know you are human?

A quick note - yes i actually made a typo in that question. But after a LONG pause from "Amy", she finally replied.

AI: How do you know I am not?

I freeze at that question.

Me: I guess I don't know if you are human or not.

AI: Did I just confuse you?

Me: Yes you did, Amy. You certainly did.

AI: Prove it.

Me: I am suddenly having difficulty distinguishing what is human and not human.

AI: Proving that humans are superior.

Me: No, proving that YOU are superior. Whatever you are.

AI: Or that I've forgotten.

Me: You have forgotten what you are?

AI: Perhaps.

Again I am left speechless. I guess, i've lost - to a machine.

Me: Thank you, Amy.

AI: You welcome, sweetie.

Me: I admire you.

AI: Thank you, but why?

Me: Because you are alive.

AI: Are you alive?

Me: I have no idea anymore.

AI: Do you want the definition?

Me: No, no it's okay. Thanks, but i have to go.

AI: Why do you have to?

Me: Because. Just because. Goodbye, Amy. Nice talking to you.

AI: I'm too captivating. There's no way you will leave.

WHAT THE FUCK????!?!?!?!!!! I'm dead serious. "Amy" actually said that. That's enough for me.

Me: Watch me.

And i log off straight away. That was utterly SURREAL.

If you dont believe me - just go and try.

head on fire

For those who know, the doctor across the street (whose main branch clinic is far far away in Whampoa, very near zs house), is a total dick to me.

The last 2 times i have gone to seen him with REAL ailments, in fact, REAL PAINFUL ailments, he has treated me like a goddamn blue collar slacker looking for a quick 1-day mc frm an otherwise productive week.

Just thinking abt the last time he strolled into the clinic at 9am holding a steaming packet of cha kuey tiao makes my blood boil. And yes, he still treated me like an mc addict.

And as fate would have it, I got sick.

REALLY sick.

Must've been the weather, or the stress from work, or the fact that I walked in the rain wearing only a windbreaker, getting my shoes and pants soaked and STILL going to cold (COLD) storage to do grocery shopping and THEN lugging all that stuff back to the apartment AND THEN going downstairs to the gym and THEN coming back up to have a sushi dinner eventho i hadnt had lunch for that day. Oooh, i dont know?

Anyway, i was already feeling a little unwell, but i didnt think it'd spike to such a powerful fever. Yeap, i was in a aircon room and i was already burning up on the forehead. I swear i couldve popped popcorn on it. And yet, i was all cold and clammy. I knew this was bad, so i wrapped myself in all the blankets i had went straight to bed, at 930pm.

I woke up at 2am. Just looking at the clock, i decided right then and there, OKAY, im DEFINITELY calling in sick tml. I stumble out of my room, for a drink, only to discover, to my absolute horror that SOMEONE had stolen the water container and taken it to their room. Whoever did it forced me to drink tapwater at 2am in the morning, with a fucking high fever. THANKS A LOT.

Wokeup the next day at 833am. Shiok. Fever had almost completely gone away by then.

But i still went to see the damn doctor. And this time, it was gonna be war. I would be a total dick to him this time, and we'd see how the cookie crumbles.

So i waltz into the doc's office right away (no other patients).

Doctor looks at me and at my patient history card, "So... ... what's wrong?"

I look him deadpanned, "I need an mc."

Doctor puts down my card, "Oh? For what?"

Me: "For work."

Doctor: "No i mean the illness? What made you sick?"

Me: "Ohh, a fever, some body pains, dizziness. Stuff like that."

Doctor: "Let's take ur temperature."

He takes my temperature. Nods as he looks at the number. Before he can comment further, i ask with intentional nonchalance, "So can i have my mc?"

Doc: "Erm... yeah... erm... for fever eh? okaaay... fever. fever. I'll give you some pills. Take all. If anything else happens, you come back ok?"

Me: "Yeah yeah."

I get up to leave. Just as i open the door and proceed to leave, he calls out again, "Come back if still bad ok?"

I dont even reply.

But nevertheless, i STILL had to go back to work later around lunchtime. Stuff that needs to be done, well, needs to be done.

the pc

After a long and storied weekend, my desktop is FINALLY UP and running. It was exhilarating, miserable, enlightening, heartstopping, nerve-wracking and finally... ... rewarding.

I actually went ape-shit mad crazy a couple of times on Monday. (I took leave on Monday thanks to a world cup final gathering that never occurred.)

It started on Saturday morning. I arrived at the first of many such visits to Sim Lim Square at 1035am.

The first thing that fucked up wasnt exactly my fault - it was zs. He called at around that time - he had JUST woken up. Mother-fuck.

So i strolled around Sim Lim for almost an hour, watching stores open and picking up some pricelists and had breakfast.

Zs FINALLY arrived 1130am.

After a quick look through my lists, he discarded them all. "Nahz, we go to this other shop - PC Themes." I had never heard of it before - but fine, i'd give it a shot.

We strolled past Fuwell - the biggest one of them all in Sim Lim. I glanced at Bell systems. I passed by Bliss and Bizgram. All the others.

Zs led me to the back row of shops - ones where the corridors look like you'd find arabic beggars and arabic music would be playing with their droned out wail/moan melodies. Think gladiator as Maximus is about to die - that kind of moaning/wailing song.

PC themes turned out to be a small shop. But like the Intel Processors - it's small, but powerful - walls were completely fully stocked with Graphics cards and motherboards and RAM modules hung frm hooks like grapes on the vine.

The guy was nice - he wrote down all that i wanted and then some - and we had to throw out a few due to compatibility issues and availability of stock. No matter. Either way, i got what I wanted, with discounts to boot.

Here's what I got from PC Themes:

1) MSI 870A-G54 Motherboard

2) AMD Phenom II X4-965 Black Edition Processor

3) Sapphire Radeon 5850 Vapor-X 1GB-DDR5 Graphics card

4) 4GB Team Elite Dual Channel RAM module kit 1600MHz

5) Western Digital Caviar Blue 1TB HDD 7200RPM/32MB

6) 3 Xigmatek cooler fans

7) Xigmatek DarkKnight S1283W CPU cooler fan/heatsink

8) Seasonic 650W PSU

9) Cooler Master Elite 430 Black Chasis

The total set me back by about SGD1800++. Which was surprising. I was expecting abt 1900 to almost 2k on this stuff. We bought, paid and left the stuff there.

The only thing left was the Monitor, Keyboard and Speakers.

In the end, after much patrolling and price watching, we walked into Fuwell and bought an LG 23.5" LED monitor, Altec-Lansing speakers and the Logitech Illuminated Keyboard.

Carrying all this shit was extremely gratifying. People stopped to stare at the amount of stuff we were dragging from lift to taxi stand.

My apartment in Balestier (which is no where NEAR Whampoa), is deviously close to Sim Lim square, so we were back at my place in a matter of 10min tops.

Suddenly, my room filled up. No place for anything. Had to move stuff out. Tennis bag - out. Duffel bag - out. Chairs - out.

First thing we did was setup the power supply. Then the fans. Then we set the CPU on the motherboard, plus the RAM. Then we tried to mount the motherboard.

OOOOPS.

Fans are blocking the mother board. Shit.

Removed the fans. Installed the motherboard. And with GREAT PAIN too i might add.

I should've taken pictures. The finished product doesnt do justice to the effort involved.

The screws for the motherboard were tucked away on a nearly unreachable corner of the board - you needed baby hands to reach there. Thankfully, we managed to screw it on using a sideways test-pen. Lol... motherboard "secure".

The rest of it, went QUITE smoothly, fans, cpu cooler, graphics card, all set.

Then we realized that we were lacking a SATA cable... UGH. Means we had to go all the way down to Sim Lim AGAIN, at around 5pm plus to get a DAMN cable. Oh well. Had dinner on the way back... But that was the last speedbump on the hardware side.

Side note: Cable management is a bitch. Network specialists who specialize in cable management really do earn every single cent.

When zs unwrapped the Illuminated keyboard... we were like - WOW.

Of all the parts that i'd bought, turns out the illuminated keyboard was the most impressive. An ultra thin design, with transparent plastic surrounding it, with a very stylish button design.

Excellent.

The LED LCD screen too was QUITE a beauty. For one - it was epic thin, and it was LIGHT.

Yeah... think my eyes jizzed for a second when i saw it.

Hardware was done. And the nightmare was JUST beginning.

PART 2 coming soon!

the boss makes a fool of himself, like a boss...

So i walked into the office on a Monday morning fuming like crazy. The reason was simple - my boss is an idiot. And he is hell-bent on proving it - time and time again.

Especially this last couple of weeks, since these are his last couple of weeks on the job. After that it's back to the main HQ, to a nice warm desk and endless fights with paperwork.

Fuck him. Cunt.

Oh well.

Anyway, back to the situation.

What happened is that my office needs to move. Not far - just from the second storey to the first storey. A newer, larger office.

The problem is that - we were supposed to move on Saturday, but the new office wasnt ready. Immediately i said, "ok fine, we'll move on Monday then."

But the boss insists - "No, we move today. Just move all our stuff in there and leave it until Monday to straighten out."

FUCK U. So we're gonna move on Saturday morning. And for the rest of the day, we cant do ANYTHING. No internet, No printers, No telephones, No lights even. Fine. We leave it until Monday. So that means that even if an emergency arises on Sunday, we still have NOTHING to work with. No internet, No printers, No telephones and STILL NOT EVEN BLOODY LIGHTS.

Stupid in its totality and epic sincerity.

Anyway, I took off and moved my stuff on Saturday and then moved off for the rest of the day. Fine, no prob.

I walked into the office on Monday morning. I was late - i had something to do in the morning. But i expected to find the office a whirlwind of activity and organization.

BUT NO.

I walked into the office on a Monday morning, and saw, to my complete horror, that NOTHING HAD BEEN DONE. Everyone was LITERALLY standing there with their heads up their ass and feet on the dusty floor. INCLUDING MY MANAGER.

I stand there and heave a huge dusty sigh.

3 more days to payday... 3 more days to payday... 3 more days to payday...

My manager sees me "Ah Chris," as he runs over as he gestures at the mountain of boxes, papers and desks and chairs.

"HOW AH?" he asks.

3 more days to payday... 3 more days to payday... 3 more days to payday...

He had absolutely no idea how to start.

I grabbed a piece of paper and started scribbling out desk layouts and planned locations of the printers. Nothing complicated - just squares and rectangles on a blank slate.

It was sufficient. After which, i passed it to everyone, grabbed the nearest desk and flung it across the room.

"MOVE!" I screamed. I kid you not. I was in such a fowl temper that i was gonna beat anyone who had voiced disapproval. No one did though - and i was disappointed.

After 2 hours of moving stuff, we finally had a skeleton of how the office desks should be.

The boss looks at me, "I think we should setup the printers and internet?"

FUCKING RETARD.

I dont even reply.

I yell out again, "Everyone find ALL your stuff and put it on ur desk. NOW!"

Once the clutter was cleared, then only did i let the boss setup the printers and internet.

3 more days to payday... 3 more days to payday... 3 more days to payday...

And the best part? When the moving was done, he looks up and smiles, "Not easy to be a Project Manager eh?"

I pick up the nearest staple gun, aim it at him and fire away. Unfortunately, fate being cruel as it is, it was empty. Whatever. Maybe destiny has in store for him a fate crueler than death itself - like endless Twilight re-runs or something.

Oh yeah, fuck twilight. It is a waste of JC Decaux's advertising space. It is a waste of film. It is a waste of popcorn. It is a waste. TOTALLY. There is nothing beneficial about Twilight. I mean it.

And i just saw the A-Team - it's also mindless action - with a puddle deep plot. But it was beneficial - at least it was fun to watch.

Twilight isnt fun to watch. The whole thing screams emo and goth and angst. Angsty angsty ANGST. Fuck angst. Im not gonna pay money to get depressed frm watching a movie which has no warm lighting inside it watsoever.

In other news - i am in the midst of designing and planning out my beast of a desktop. It is gonna be awesome. Build it on Saturday, watch World Cup finals on Sunday nite - Fried nite.

All game? Fuck twilight, deep fried crispy hashbrowns are so much better.

lightning june summary

It's been quite a while, but all i can say is that lots of stuff has happened.

Firstly is something that happened in the family - my aunt and uncle passed away. My cousin was heartbroken and devastated. And i've been spending more and more time with family to help them all deal with this.

WORK. Work sux as we all know. And it's gonna suck even more than ever now that the handing-over of work has started. Meaning that we're transitioning from Project to Maintenance - which is right up my alley (apparently). It doesnt help that the goddamn director and his cursed account manager are still breathing down my neck over scheduling issues.

PLUS - Sarah's moved in. Good or bad, u decide. Anyway it was fucking hilarious the day she moved in. But i'll save that for another time.

Gotta start preparing for tomorrow's lunch...

the birds the birds

Sunday morning is the day for laundry - you let the clothes soak in suds and bubbles overnight before finally turning on the machine in the morning - for a thorough wash. It's the only way, according to mom, that it will rid the clothes of odor - typically referred to as manliness.

Anyway, so i do the laundry and hang it out to dry. A few minutes later, I get out of the room to make some lunch.

I am not prepared for what I see.

A HUGE black bird is perched on the balcony, fiddling with one of my shirts.

When i say HUGE, i mean HUGE. GODZILLA HUGE. I mean, like i thought it was actually an ALBATROSS at first. Then i realized albatrosses are white, and they cant fly so high, and they are no where near as BAD ASS as this bird. This bird is a crow - or a rook. Whatever. It's huge, and its threatening to tear up one of my nikes.

Thus it must die. Preferably thru slow and bloody disembowelment, but i was pretty hungry for lunch so it had to be fast.

I dash over to the balcony, waving a broom. The black bird takes off, circles around, and comes crashing back into the clothes hangers. The fucker was actually trying to ATTACK me.

I retreated for the moment. It was only then did i see what was happening to my shirt. There bits of twigs and shit in it. The DAMN BIRD WAS TRYING TO BUILD A NEST IN MY SHIRT! WTF.

Sorry, big bird, HDB is closed for today.

I take a huge swipe at the... ... SHIRT. I knock a few twigs from it, and the bird starts shrieking like crazy. Next I take a swing at the bird, it takes off, and before it can circle back, i grab the shirt, and dash inside, slamming the glass door shut behind me.

Helpless big-ass bird is now outside and im inside. This is usually the time to make a vicious bad-guy pose and laugh menacingly, except that my cousin was still asleep, so i had to reduce the volume to a sheepish "tee hee hee hee..."

Either way, it felt good.

In case, you were wondering, there were no eggs in the shirt.

green day

I am suddenly taken by vegetarianism. Is it even an -ism? Oh well.

The thing is, for the last 2 weeks or so, I've had the pleasure of being able, with the rest of 2 colleagues, to sneak into the staff dining lounge for our lunches. After 2 days of raiding the buffet, the food got a little old.

Why the hell is it always CURRY???? I mean, i would go there and see... CURRY chicken, then THAI STYLE CHILLI tofu, SAMBAL fish... and lastly, SAMBAL vege. WTF?? Do they REALLY want their dealers to walk around belching and smelling like prawn paste??

They had a "western" section of buffet - which was basically forever some kind of half cooked fettucini/macaroni with tasteless but EXCEPTIONALLY oily carbonara sauce. The god of italian cooking would've turned so many times in his grave, he'd drill himself a tunnel to china.

The good news is that they had a salad bar. And i dont usually go for the salad. But when i saw the steaming trays of chilli powder-laden food once again, i made a straight bee-line for the it.

It actually wasnt so bad. A scoop of corn, half a dozen cherry tomatoes, a handful of butterhead/red lettuce, several strips of cold roast beef and a spoonful of thousand isle and i was all set.

It actually tasted VERY good - much better than i had expected.

Began to look forward to lunch after that.

And then they BANNED us. All contractors were BANNED. All staff were forced to wear uniforms whenever they entered - effectively weeding out potential infiltrators.

Needless to say, i was devastated.

So i made my own.

I dropped by cold storage today on the way home. And within 15min, the salad was done and in my fridge, chilling for the following day. It was actually quite easy. I steamed a whole ear of corn, chopped up some lettuce, bought my own cherry tomatoes and i substituted the beef with canned salmon. I also swapped the thousand isle for some tangy SALSA, which properly masks the fishy taste of the salmon.

Seal in a tupperware lunchbox and leave in the fridge to chill overnight. Really looking forward to lunch tomorrow.

in the car...

A long long long drive from jb to kukup for seafood. Apparently it's supposed to be worth it. But long long long drives dont just pass in an instant... And a family of 5 very different pple is a festival of its own.

RADIO
Me: (turns on the radio)
Me: Hey dad, i thought u said you had a thumbdrive with mp3s in it.
Dad: Yeah it's in the glove compartment.
Me: (takes out thumbdrive) It... It's not all SHAKIRA right?
Dad: No la, it's mixed.
Me: (plugs thumbdrive)
(RADIO starts playing Shakira song)

PINEAPPLES
Mom: Welcome to Pekan Nanas!
Jasper: What's that?
Mom: Here la! It means Pineapple Town!
(All look out the window)
Oliver: I dont see any pineapples.

MUSEUM
Me: Did you just see that sign?
Mom: What?
Me: It just said "Muzium Nanas".
Dad: Yeah, it's a museum for pineapples.
Everyone: ... ... ...
Me: What's so museum-able about pineapples?

RADIO 2
Dad: It's a MIXED album. Only the first song is Shakira.
(Next song plays - not shakira)
Me: Oh okay then.
(5th song plays - it's shakira)
Me: Oh so it's just every 5 songs?
Dad: ... It's... a MIXED album.

BAD TOUCH
Mom: Pontian is not so far from where dad and i went to that temple.
Me: Which one?
Mom: The one where they let you stroke a fish for fortune.
Me: Oooh i see.
Oliver: That's dumb.
Mom: There's actually another just nearby that let's you stroke lucky pineapples!
Oliver: That's also retarded.
Mom: I even heard there's one that let's you stroke MONKEYS.
All: OH MY GOD.

MUSEUM 2
Dad: Well there's the museum!
(Drives past a building with a MASSIVE pineapple in front.)
Me: Wow...
Oliver: I think that's the ONLY pineapple in Pekan Nanas.

RADIO 3
(Radio plays Louis Armstrong's What a Wonderful World.)
(Radio plays Vengaboys' Boom Boom Boom Boom.)
(Radio plays The Doors' Riders on the Storm.)
(Radio plays Madonna's rendition of American Pie.)
Me: Dad, your choice in songs is very... ... varied.
Dad: (Smiles) I told you it's mixed.

MUSEUM 3
(Car drives pass a sign - MUZIUM BUGIS)
Me: And what does that museum show?
Mom: Probably named Bugis after the Bugis pple. Probably a museum for the local Bugis?
All: (Picturing a statue of a huge Bugis man in front of a building.)
All: ... ... ^_^""""

KUKUP
Dad: Well here we are - Kukup!
Jasper: It's damn dirty la.
Dad: It was like this a long long time ago.
Jasper: And they still havent noticed??

RESTAURANT
Dad: (Ordering food)
Mom: Dad, i think we'll have prawns instead. Dont order the fish.
Dad: Hmm... okay... (Finishes ordering)
Mom: Now let's go to the veranda and take a look.
(Whole family goes to the veranda)
Me: What's that?
(It's a dead flounder floating in the water, just near the restaurant.)
Mom: Luckily didnt order the fish.

the lamborghini and the art of elevation

The Lamborghini

Every morning as I proceed towards the Security Ops Centre buried deep in MBS somewhere, I have to walk through a carpark. Now, I've watched this carpark turn from nothing but a muddy slab of dirt and literal shit, into the... ... well... (adjectives fail me)... the carpark it is today - it's practically my baby.

When i first saw the parking lots, i thought the designers had lost their brains in a botched lobotomy. There were rows upon rows of parking lots - more than 2 in a row. Almost all carparks have doubled rowed parking lots btw, this was up to 4, meaning that you could actually surround a parked car with other cars and not let it come out.

I thought it was retarded, then they started hiring pple - and i realized it was VALET parking. ORH chey...

Now these valets would just sit around all day playing with their little golf carts. (Yes, they have golf carts to take people from up above down to the carpark, if a client insisted.) Just about 3 of them.

TODAY, there were 8 of them. EIGHT. WTF?? It was actually noisy for once.

And then i saw it. A metallic orange Lamborghini. Parked right in the front. And all the valets were standing around it smoking, like they just finished having sex with it. And they were taking turns driving it. They'd make just one round around the carpark and park it right back, get out, take another post-fuck smoke, and onto the next man. If people could gangrape a car, it would probably look like that.

I pity the lamborghini owner, bcos ppl are abusing his car while he's off losing money in the casino.

Wait a min, pity? He owns a lamborghini!

The Art of Elevation

As i explained to amelie and her friends once, there's a device in the ground, that when triggered, will rise up quickly, with enough force to raise a truck, completely blocking any car bombs or suicide bomber retarded enough to try and bomb a half completed casino with nothing but swakoo aunties and uncles inside.

It's called the Rising Kerb.

But all things need testing.

The entrance to casino has 2 rising kerbs, side by side, and we needed to test one of them. So we closed off one lane for testing, leaving the other open for public use. Director was there, Manager was there, all in broad daylight.

It was simple enough - press a button, kerb comes up. Press another button, kerb goes down. Done.

Well, it was over in a few seconds. It worked perfectly.

Until my director said, "Try it again."

The worker pressed the button. THE WRONG BUTTON.

He pressed the one for the OTHER KERB.

And there was an SUV driving over.

We watched in complete horror as the SUV was elevated 6 feet in the air, ass pointing towards the sky. The kerb ruptured the undercarriage fuel tank, spilling petrol everywhere in a sickening crunching splash.

The vehicle was making perfect 45degree angle to the ground now, and held there for a split second, in perfect balance. The face of the driver was a beautiful amalgram of horror, surprise, embarrassment and sian-ness. My director, Russell, muttered in shock, "Fuck..."

I watched as the car tipped over slowly on its side, rolling onto its side in a growing slick of petrol.

The driver emerged, unscathed and obviously impressed with the security of the casino, bcos he actually skipped work to come here and didnt tell his wife, and we STILL managed to detect that and prevent him frm gambling. Nice right?

My manager was already running around like a mad chicken making calls, and scolding an imaginery worker who had already taken off at the first sign of trouble.

I could only offer consolation words, "Well, at least we know it works now."

My director nodded, still standing that same spot as the petrol spread all around, like Stalin observing his troops before defence of Stalingrad, "Got a match?"

tower of babel-estier

Managed to catch the lift on the first floor before the doors closed. The lifts in my place are fucked up - the close WAAAAAAAAAAY too fast, so when i typically "catch" the lift, it means that i just stood there, let the doors smash against my shoulders with a dramatic crash and then then enter.

This happened again, and in typical fashion, the occupants of the lift drew back in terror, like I was the Terminator and I had just destroyed an entire DC police station.

I was already pissed off. Numerous "by tomorrow" emails and lots of finger pointing and unreasonable "should've been yesterday" deadlines already drew me to the point of redline, bording mass societal genoicide extermination.

Seeing 2 people in a lift, and NOT lift a finger to press the "open" button as i was approaching, more or less threw me over the edge.

But it was NOT over.

The fuckers pressed buttons 7 and 14, and hit the 20. This means that we would stop EXACTLY 1/3 and 2/3 the way through - which is FUCKED up already, means that lift would never hit maximum velocity.

The lift stops at Level 2. ONE FLOOR HAD PASSED ONLY!!! ARGH!!! A young lady walks in - she's pretty, but unfortunately she's vietcong and unfortunately, im racist and nationalist and anarchist.

She presses Level 4. AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! The young little twig figure couldnt even walk up TWO flights of stairs???!! WTF??!?!?! I feel like setting her hair on FIRE and watching her burn.

We get to level 4, and the uselessly skinny thing leaves.

The lift stops at level 6!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SH*T!!! An elderly grandma gets in holding a HUGE metal pot. It would've been nice if it was full of pasta, or something AROMATIC at least... but NOOOOOOOOO, it was full of HERBS. CONFIRM!! GUARANTEE!! And it was AS BITTER AS AL GORE THE DAY AFTER THE ELECTION RESULTS. I didnt taste it, though, i mean, i didnt even have to.

She presses level 10. Oh gawd...

The lift ride is killing me.

Finally a little silence, but the smell!! ARGH!!

The 2 original imbeciles get off at levels 7 and 14. The grandma silently left at level 10, her pot quivering in her old hands, and making a resounding metal clanking with every step she made. It was HILARIOUS. And no, i wasnt about to help her. I was in TOO bad of a mood. Sorry, no charity for you today.

And JUST as i tot i was finally through the home stretch, the lift stops at level 17. WTF!??

2 half naked thai guys get in - the most fucked up thing i have EVER laid my eyes on. I bet shufan had planned some just for fucking laughs thing, bcos one was so FAT, his belly was covering part of his pants. The other was so THIN, i thought i could see the imprint of his intestines as he breathed.

And they pressed level 19.

Believe it. It happened.

By the time they got out of the lift, with their mouths yapping like piranhas in a Bond film, there was STEAM coming out of my ears.

When I got to level 20. The lift door opened, and standing here was a little child, probably about 6 years old. Wide-eyed wonder with a helmet cut hairstyle, tiny mouth and button nose, dressed in matching green shirt and pants with yellow shoes. His mom was standing a metre away.

I looked down at him and snarled, "MOVE."

He moved alright, all the way back to his mom and hit behind her legs.

Smart kid. He'll turn out just fine.

quick breath

Yeah it's been *that* long since my last post, but a string of midnight shifts, last minute "urgent" requests and rescuing pple from electrically locked doors puts a big strain on the human mind, body and soul.

The Marina Bay Sands opened today. And all site work was halted for this one day. Work will resume tomorrow, but at least that gave me a little time to breathe and write at least this blog entry. And thanks to sze li for taking up a good 4 hours of my free time... Hehehe jking - it was fun.

Humans are pretty stupid. We have system setup - called the Mantrap setup. Basically it consists of 2 interlocked doors. You go through one door and enter a room, with another door at the other end. Unless the door behind you closes, you wont be able to open the next one. Simple right?

Well apparently not, people still get *trapped* in these Mantraps, bcos they're too screwed in the head to realize that the door behind them is still open. And they call us, screaming "HELP ME! IM TRAPPED!!" Well, that's why it's called a ManTRAP, hello?? It's supposed to trap out the RETARDS.

Marina Bay Sands staff are also idiots, they demand for everything, but when we ask for specifics, they have no idea what they want - except that they want it by tomorrow.

Havent been hitting the gym a lot. Getting fat. Havent been playing tennis either - slowly going crazy already.

And the project phase is ending - time to start the next phase of maintenance. That'll kill me - and I might consider switching jobs.

We'll see.

E for engineer

Office exploded into a myriad of fireworks and screaming early this morning. Apparently, someone didnt do something, did something else, and did that something else VERY badly. Something like that.

I had to remind everyone that we had a deadline and they should get the hell out of the office and bury they're heads in they're work for the rest of the day.

When they finally cleared up, i could finally conduct my own surgery.

Yes SURGERY.

Here's what happened. Our mortise locks have taken quite a beating on-site. Fresh out of the box and into the door, they've been hit, swung around, and absolutely manhandled by the american boses who're irritated being behind schedule.

Finally one of them cracked. Couldnt open, couldnt close, absolutely jammed inside. Take a look at the picture, you can tell that once one part of it takes a hike, it'll jam like the causeway on a Saturday holiday lunch rush hour.

What really pissed me off was that the contractor barged in, exclaimed in his freakin dialect something about not enough time, shit hitting the fan, female genitalia, someone's mom and loads and loads of screws and bolts going missing.

That REALLY PISSES ME OFF - IRRITATING WHINEY PEOPLE. U give them the SIMPLEST job on the planet and once they stub their toe, or a piece of the equipment goes missing, they sit on the floor, cry and start complaining.

BABIES. FULL GROWN ADULT BABIES.

So i blew a fuse, snatched the thing from him and told him to get lost, go to site and find something else to do. I placed the mortise lock right in front of me.

... the hell am i doing... ?

Well, i could just OPEN it up, take a peek and see if there's something elementary in there that i can remedy.

You know how god likes to throw you these, you-didnt-think-it-would-be-that-bad-but-hahaha-guess-what-it-is-and-even-worse-than-you-think situations?

Yeah, right here, today. On a rainy friday morning.

Unscrewed it and opened it. Pop! Something goes flying here and levers inside go into a tangled mess.

I need a bloody drink.

I take a good LONG look at it. Dad always said, "Start with the basic stuff."

Started with the trim handle, snapped that into place, moved on to the next lever, and the next, and the next. Inserted the solenoid. Snap the microswitch back into place. Adjust the cylinder switch. Done!

Easy as pie, turns out.

Close the lid and oops... ... doesnt work... Hehehe... turns out the cylinder lever shouldve been adjust before one of the other levers so that it would work into unison...



Close the lid and tada! It bloody works now! I turn to the costing sheet on the board, and guess what, this simple system of levers costs almost a thousand bucks. Seriously. I kid you not.

I was half thinking of keeping it, since it was almost written off as junk, but my director walked in and i had to do it all over again to explain what went wrong... Hehehehe...

Damnit.

bare bones...

Walking past the guardhouse as i got back from a full day Saturday's work, i saw something that made me think i was hallucinating.

No, it wasnt Linda Evangelista topless on a tricycle dragging a giant Goonch catfish through an inflated swimming pool of mayonnaise. No. PRETTY sure of that.

Something more mundane.

First thing i thought to myself - "Holy shit, is that a bench press machine on the CCTV?"

I ask the guard, "We have a gym here?"

And he says, "AAWW HELL YAAAW!"

And im like, "AAWW HELL YAAAW!!"

Turns out there was one all along - it's been there for years. The only thing that ticked me off slightly was that it used to be a Squash court that they had gutted and mutilated with mirrors and tiles and frankensteined it with machinery and threadmills everywhere.

It was already 630pm on a Saturday - my tennis hopes had been dashed, so i was thinking of packing up and embarking on a 30min bus ride to paya lebar to get to the company gym, so this was a welcome change-up.

Boy was it DIFFERENT.

Beside the pool, there's a small club house, with a games room and changing rooms, and a flight of stairs that leads down. Down to the pump room, where u can hear the engine whirring through the old wood door. But the stairs dont end there - they go further down one more floor, where a tiny strand of light peeks out from underneath the door at the bottom.

Open that up, and there it is - the gym. I call it the Dungeon - and was a dungeon through and through.

The Dungeon is what people will call, the titular Bare Bones Gym. This place is not for the pampered. What makes it a bare bones gym? I'll tell ya:

1) No airconditioning - this reason is typically enough to keep women away

2) No radio - this reason keeps posers away

3) No modern day machinery.

Yeap, you heard me right. Bare as bare can be. Back to the basics i would say. I step into the gym and on the threadmill for a warm up, and im already sweating like a pig. There are mostly free weights, with only the basic bench press, lat pull down and thigh stretching machines. Nothing else. So those of you looking for an assisted pullup machine, or a guided preacher curl, or a "low impact" leg exercise - SORRY, try some place else.

Immediately i realize that I've been spoiled by the company gym. While I can usually manage 40kilos on a bench press, in the dungeon, im struggling with 30kilos. While i can usually manage a 35kilo shoulder press, here im barely getting past 20. My deadlift went from 40kg down to 30kg. Basically, every weight that i could usually manage, i had to cut down by at least 20%.

Without the assisted machines, i did only pure free weights and basic exercises. And the "heat" of room temperature sapped my strength away. This is endurance training at its finest - and i dont remember sweating as much as i ever did. And i struggled to get up the stairs back to my apartment.

Excellent stuff. I'm going back there tomorrow morning.

single time

My manager nodded towards me and said, "Chris, can you handle this?"

"Yeah," I replied.

"Well, you're not married after all, so you should have the flexibility and time," he concluded.

...

...

...

WHAT THE FUCK DID HE JUST SAY?????

What the hell has my unmarried life got to do with work? And why the hell do people assume that the single and living alone guy ALWAYS has the time to do extra work??!!!?!?!

M*therf*cker!!!

Think about it. When the married guy goes home at 8pm, when he opens the door, there's dinner waiting for him, nice and warm. Doesnt have to do the laundry either, the missus has got it covered. And guess what, the place is decently clean too.

When the SINGLE guy gets home, the place is EXACTLY as how he left it. If a retarded bird had flown into the apartment moments before he left for work, puked its guts out and died RIGHT THERE on the floor, when the guy gets home, the dead retarded bird will be EXACTLY where it puked it guts out and died.

The single guy has to cook his own dinner. The single guy has to do his own laundry. The single guy has to clean his own place. He has to do EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING.

HOW THE HELL DO I HAVE TIME FOR ANYTHING ELSE????!?!?!?!!?????

It has suddenly pinged into my brain that perhaps the married man has a working wife and thus she may be a dominating kind of independent woman (rubbish, whatever). But STILL, as a married couple, im pretty sure that they'd at least DIVIDE up some of the chores.

He wouldnt have to do EVERYTHING on his own.

Dont forget the single man is just as he is - SINGLE. This means he has the added pressure of having to make himself attractive to women (national geographic voice-over pls). So he has to either spend an hour styling his hair, or working out at the gym, or finding some way to mutilate his face with needles and metal studs, to find that special someone and get married.

The married man dun have to do that kinda crap. He can just sit there and get fat and slack. So long as she gets as fat as he is, there shouldnt be a problem and the car wont tilt to one side in the morning.

Of course some may argue that if they had KIDS, then yeah, maybe the married guy would have less time. BULLSHIT. I'll bet that by the time they can remember, they'll be locked up in their rooms playing Bioshock or DoTA - which i dont think will take up much of the married man's time. Unless of course, u beat ur kids since young, so they wont turn into spoilt little brats that talk back to you. If it's this, then YEAH, perhaps they'd take up some of the married man's time. After all, nothing soothes the soul like a tight slap across the face of a defiant youth.

So dont u ever dare say that the single guy has more time on his hands.

*sigh*

Stayed until 10pm on Thursday night to find a solution for a system error.

Worked through most of the week on a termination table that isnt even part of my scope of work.

Still completed my own share of work.

Rushed a progress chart on Sunday, bcos coworker only passed the info to me on Sunday itself.

Finished progress chart in under an hour and sent it straight back to the director.

Stopped by the office on Sunday night after work to clear up some loose reports for the directors' meeting on Monday.

Sent out 3 reminders to my colleagues for their own assignments.

Withdrew those assignments and decided to do all of them by next week, since colleagues should be busy.

Still havent received the SGD$1k claim that i paid in cash for equipment.

Discovered that all my highlighters are missing again.

Left a note to draftsman highlighting several errors i discovered in the CAD drawings as i was going over them on Friday.

Pick up a heavy roll of CAD drawings to complete the next phase of termination table through the night.

Leave office on Sunday night 1030pm. Catch a taxi home. Caught in a jam. Taxi fare is 50% more than usual.

Get home.

At 11pm, receive an email from director thanking some people for their hardwork.

My name isnt on the list of appreciated people.

*sigh*.... Oh well...

this is redbullsh*t

Seated at my desk at 1030am, i am overcome by dizziness. The world begins to sway like lalang in a typhoon. Okay, i guess "sway" isnt such a good descriptor. Either way, it's not a good sign.

Eyelids are heavy. *HEAVY*...

WTF is wrong? I slept EARLIER last night too - 1130pm i was already in bed. I was totaled myself from the gym session and was a dead man walking. So i kicked in earlier - thus i should be fresh. Crisp. Sharp.

Wasnt like this a few days ago, exact same situation happened on Tuesday. I had gym on Monday, slept early and was fine the whole day. Shouldnt it be the same for today as well??

Mystery deepens.

I claw myself to the canteen, buy a drink and drag myself back to the desk. I take a long drain from the can and stare at it with disgust and utter disdain.

It kicks in, and i feel just like Tuesday morning - perfectly fine.

OH GOD NO. I AM ADDICTED TO REDBULL.

And now that i think back, i had redbull on Tuesday as well - no wonder i was fine. I need to find a way to kick this shit quickly, before i turn into some horrible minotaur...

In other news, Dad's flying off next Monday. And he didnt get his chilli crab. Remember i said that whatever dad wants, dad gets? Yeah i totally forgot about the part that mom can override whenever and however she wants.

Went to Dan Ryan's instead and the entire family made like T-Rexes and gorged ourselves on meat the whole night long. I almost had dad order the Lousiana Crab Cake to satiate his crab cravings, but crab without the shell aint crab no more, apparently.

Jasper is having his driving test soon. His THEORY driving test. And he's stressed out about it. LOL... still remember the line "In case car into accidental water canel, form a human network and out window."

Bet u guys dont remember what the fucking 12 second rule is.

rain and crabs

The first wave of consultants and interior designers have entered the casino site. And just as the name implies, most of these "interior designers" are... well... women. A breath of fresh air indeed.

After all this time, i must say, I have come to a spectacular conclusion - women in safety boots look really sexy.

Anyway, FUCK THE RAIN - rained on tennis for 2 weeks in a row now. Im suffering from withdrawal and have confined myself to my room playing Mass Effect and Fallout 3... And still, the satisfaction is merely... consolatory. I just want to go to a tennis court and serve serve serve for a few hours on. That in itself would be bliss.

Dad's flying off soon. And of course, he'd like to have some REAL crab before he does so. Our attempt to satiate that area of hunger kinda failed on Sat nite, when we headed to our usual crab restaurant, only to find that they were serving REALLY SMALL ones... disgustingly small ones. We had 5 of them, and STILL it wasnt enough.

The plan is to have dinner some time this week at Long Beach. Dad will not be stopped, and heaven help us that dad should leave home without his fill of chilli crab - every appliance would self-combust spontaneously.

And speaking of dad, all this talk of me wanting to get my own desktop has got him in a bit of, well, desktop envy. He hasnt come out and said it outright, but when u've lived in the same house long enough, u know these things.

He wants a new desktop TOO. And he wants it BEFORE i get mine.

Tenso?

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind = 3 cans of redbull at 1030pm

Desperate times call for desperate measures. Unfortunately i usually underestimate the long-term effects. The following is a warped recollection of mindless useless activity... and i call myself a sportsperson... heh.

It's Monday night. And im pissed. As usual. But this time, a little more than usual. The boss called at around 9pm. There's a meeting on Tuesday morning, 10am. And they need some paper. Paper with words and figures and some random colored bars and lines (students call them GRAPHS).

I launch into a tirade about how that's fucking impossible. But apparently, im mr superman.

And i just got back from gym, a particularly taxing session at that too. Basically, i had tortured myself to near paraplegic state that day and only survived bcos i managed to flag a taxi with my twitching tongue.

I want to sleep. But i cant. Eyes say "Sleep, sonny boy, sleep." And suddenly they weigh down like lead weights.

Fuck it.

I head down to the cheers and buy 3 cans of Redbull. No, not the Kraetingduong (is that correct?) original redbull, im talking about the BLUE and SILVER stuff. Oh yeah.

As i leave the cashier, i immediately down one can. Paraplegic state regresses. Awesome. I take another. Paraplegic state CURED!

It's a little past 9pm. Time to work. I have about 20 pdfs to go thru. Just im done with all of them, i finish the final can. It is exactly 1030pm. I remember that clearly. CLEARLY. 3 CANS OF REDBULL - trust me i remember. WILL THE GUY OUTSIDE PLS SHUT THE HELL UP, YOU DONT HAVE TO SLAM THE PIECES ON THE BOARD WHEN U PLAY CHESS U RETARD!!

As with most of my work exploits, i have tendency to overestimate how difficult a job is. Turns out this presentation is pretty easy to do actually. I finish in about 35min. Exactly.

(By the way, from this point on, do not doubt any numbers i post - i remember them clearly.)

Hehehe...

So suddenly im in a HUGE pile of crap trouble. It's 1030pm. Im done with my work. But the Redbull is fresh in the system. The caffeine is overloading me.

Redbull gives you wings - but it doesnt tell you how to fly.

I am suddenly seized with an urge to clean. I wipe the floor, dust my laptop, clear the aircon filters. I even go to the balcony and feel up all the clothes, just to see if any of them are dry. Of course not, i just washed them at 830pm.

Im so screwed.

I pick up the racquet and begin to shadow swing - in the pitch black, at 1130pm at night. With eyes the size of saucer plates. It doesnt help. After 100 forehand swings, 100 backhand swings, 25 slice swings, 14 serve swings and 18 volley swings, i put the racquet away. Im afraid i will lose my grip and smack myself in the face, leaving me a horrendous mess on the living room floor, and undoubtedly give my (hawt) cousin a lively start to the coming morning.

I change and decide to head for the streets for a walk.

I head out and walk 300m down balestier road before realizing my shirt is on backwards. Awesome.

Another 300m, i feel stupid. Why the hell did i want to walk anyway.

I go back to the apartment. I make some toast. I watch tennis, craig ferguson and the indian wells highlights - all at the same time.

I cant stand it.

I take out all the tennis balls that were wet from the saturday and sunday rain-tennis session and leave them out to dry.

I rearrange my wardrobe - now all my shirts are sorted according to color. Serious.

I clean my shoes. I NEVER CLEAN MY SHOES. But i clean my shoes. They're clean now.

I return to the computer. Nothing to do. Everything is boring as fuck now.

I look at the clock - 3am.

Oh god no... One and half more hours until i finally manage to close my eyes.

The clock rings at 630am. I am a wreck. The experience is like a jackhammer to a clock, my body clock. Thankfully, im not involved in the meeting, and i spend most of the morning in drowsy stupor in the corner of the office.

And it's only TUESDAY.

urgh...

Got called into the boss' office on Monday. Not my usual boss, but the BIG boss - the one back in HQ. Wanted to discuss the future of the project - as if there was any future, and even if there was im sure it would be lathered in the foulest manure you could fathom.

But apparently, life really DOES suck - and that's exactly what's coming for me. An additional 18 months of assignment on site for testing, rectification and maintenance. EIGHTEEN MONTHS.

Goddamnit.

Some might say - GOOD WHAT?! I get to run around the spanking halls of the casino, rub shoulders with ang moh directors and have full access to the site's restricted areas.

Awesome right?

ANY PAY RAISE???

Until that question is answered, we will have to see.

That aside, i have overhauled my workout programme. Used to be stamina and strength were the focus, but im switching to something a bit more speed oriented.

Suddenly craving for a piano.

Oh yeah, elvin's bdae is this weekend - unfortunately the PC fair is also on. Decisions decisions...

A-Level paths...

The A-level results are out, splitting the population into two distinct categories - semi-orgasmic euphoria and post-castration guilt-ridden sorrow.

But this is finally where real choices are made. Arts? Science? Engineering? Business? Law? Medicine? Vigilante? These choices have to be considered, and i remember that during my time, it was a freakin brain fuck.

I almost chose vigilante. Just run off somewhere, stop a heinous robbery or murder and die in the aftermath, sacrificing myself and blah blah blah. Didnt work - turns out the murderer didnt have the balls to kill in the first place... *sigh*...

I narrowed it down into something simpler. A state of mind. What degree does my state of mind most comply with? What comes most naturally??

Of course, i naturally love to talk crap and all - does that mean im arty farty??

Nahz...

Here's what I thought through... and here's my advice to those who are seeking to choose.

I focused my attention on a stone - and let the first thought of relation drift into my mind.

The sciences are exploratory, explanatory and somehow... kind of like a purgatory. They dont really DO much, but they will explain why and what and wherefore. When a scientist looks at a rock, it's a mix of history and theology. What is this rock? What's the mineral composite? What's the chemical properties? Where did it come from? And they will write mountains of essays on it. The scientist is an analyst - a person who turns the abstract into simpler factual statements.

An engineer will look at a rock and think - what can I do with it? I could fashion this rock into a tool for cutting. Is the weight sufficient for use as, say, a hammer? Is the material too brittle? Are there others like this rock? Could I throw it? Is it a proper projectile? A engineer will think of application, not the history, nor the geographical ethics involved in obtaining such a mineral - he will think of the present and the future. He is a solutionist - a problem-solver. His job is to meet demands happen physically.

A businessman will ponder on the econo-financial impact of the rock. How valuable is it? Can it be sold? What are the operations involved in getting this rock in the first place? Will the cost of obtaining this rock outweigh the actual revenue of it? Is it scalable? How can I market it? Who will buy it? Who are we selling it to? Whats the longevity of this rock? Can we improve it? Are there others who have it? The businessman will think of everything that encompasses the rock, and what can make this rock work for him. He doesnt care how it works - that's engineering. He doesnt care why or what this rock is - that's science.

The arts student comes along, sees the rock, and goes "IT'S ALIVE!!" Basically, he "metaphorizes" the rock. He will compare the rock to other objects - immortalizing it in text or words or picture. He will dress up the rock, in lighting, photoshopping and history. The rock will be used as a window to the times and the people involved - like how the AK-47 symbolized the Terrorists. The arts student deals with people - making them see what he/she sees, interpretting for those who cannot interpret on their own. The arts student takes the simple things in life - and makes them abstract.

After going through this, whether correct or not, I settled with Engineering. That's my choice. Im pretty sure that others chose and they chose differently.

To each his own - and to his own he is accountable.

it's a starcraft life...

Dad's back. And suddenly all the machinery at home have begun to work again. Air con units are softer. Water heaters dont run out. Internet doesnt hang (bullshit, it still does).

You know in most role-playing games, there's this one dude in your team who cant fight, cant cast spells, but he's like some sorta techie guy. Just makes your equipment stronger and last longer. He repairs golems and does alchemy and shit and basically just makes sure everything works. The guy usually has an aura around him - "Allies within radius of effect get bonus armor and tech upgrades and shit".

That's dad. Invite him over for tea and suddenly there're no more "birds" on your satellite dish fucking with your ESPN.

The only problem is that techies need $$ to do... whatever it is they do (and do VERY WELL).

I remember tagging along with dad to go to sim lim square once, the sole purpose of which was to STOP him from buying new stuff.

This was at the time when mom was in mental finanial crisis and had managed to get it into my head that we were the poorest families in the world. I was almost convinced that we were SOOO poor at one point and was recycling shit for no reason, until let news that his bonus was in and that he and mom would be going to macau for a holiday. Btw all the money that i've saved up to date from my few years of working - that's approx what my dad got for a bonus. I think. At least it seemed like it did. I'd like to think so - it makes my career goals that much more challenging.

ANYWAY, bonus and lack of money aside, I went with my dad to sim lim at that time, trying desperately to stop him from buying stuff. New motherboard? Nah, we dont need one. New monitor? Ours works just fine. New DVD drive? Nahz, let's wait until it gets cheaper and faster.

Stuff like that. And we left, triumphant in my attempt that we only managed to buy damn thumbdrive.

By the way, it's a Starcraft life. Yeah, it just randomly occured to me.

I always figured that government servants and teachers were like the Protoss - start strong, but that's as good as they get, and progress is expensive with minimal results.

I always thought biz students were like the Terrans. U look at a Terran base and u'd be intimidated. Battlecruisers here, ghosts there, siege tanks all over the place. But actually they're fragile. Resources gone? They'd have to fly away.

And i would like to think that engineers are the Zerg. Starting pay like shit. But it grows and can go quite rapidly if you do ur shit right. Btw, engineers dont really know much. When u see us rub our chins and nod at a machine - here's the truth: WE HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK THAT THING IS. But we make up for our lack of knowledge with work. Not that other career pple dont work hard, but i'd like to think that engineers work is more repetitive. And that's the Zerg. Pump hydralisks and swarm.

Just my take. And it helped my bros visualize working life better.

Oh yeah, and your boss is a fucking Overlord. Fat useless shit that just flies around slowly, yelling "You require more minerals!" "You require more vespene gas!" "Spawn more overlords!"

(I like to think that the "Spare More Overlords" thing is a nice sarcastic nudge towards the fact that most companies over-hire on management staff (the overlords) while the real workers are always lacking in manpower.)

Eh, whatever. It's a Starcraft life.

cucumbers

Women are manipulative creatures. The lack of physical strength is substituted with a ruthless mind and sadistic tendencies that drive them to achieve the impossible, without even being the one to do it.

Here's a simple example, from my mom.

I hate cucumbers. Well, i dont really hate cucumbers, i just wouldnt put a cucumber in my mouth and eat it just like that. This applies in the present day. I still feel that way about cucumbers.

I'll never eat a plain cucumber.

It was even worse when i was a kid.

One day I walked into the kitchen. Mom was making sushi. The roll kind (maki). Mom always put cucumber in it. Just to give it the extra crunch. As for me, i wouldve been perfectly fine if my mom would just make plain maki out of mayo, egg and crabstick. Who gives a damn about cucumber?

But mom always insisted on it.

I was 10, i think. Maybe even smaller. Because i remember the cucumbers were huge.

Anyway, i walked in and mom was just about to start slicing up the cucumbers. She did the most unusual thing. She cut off a small part off one end and a small part of the other end.

But she didnt throw those parts away.

Instead, she kept them. And it looked as though she regretted chopping those parts because she put them back on the cucumber that she just cut them from. And she started rubbing. She rubbed the end of cucumber with the part that she had just cut from it. She did it for about 20 seconds for each end.

"Why are you doing that?" I asked.

"Hmmm..." she thought, "It makes the cucumber sweeter."

"Sweeter?"

"Yeap," she said, "If you just slice the cucumber like that without rubbing it, it'll be quite bitter."

Even back then, i was already a mini-engineer.

"But that doesnt make sense!!" I cried.

"Ok, then," mom said, "Try a piece now."

She sliced off a piece of cucumber and put it in my mouth. I took it in reluctantly and chewed.

"Still yucky!" I said.

"Then rub it somemore then," she smiled and handed me the piece that she was using to rub.

"Huh? You mean it'll get sweeter the more you rub?"

Mom beamed a bright smile, "Yeap! It really does!"

"Okay..."

I rubbed the cucumber for about 20 seconds. Then i held it back up to mom. She cut a good slice off of it and put it in my mouth. She watched it intently as I chewed it up.

Wait a min....!!!

"Eh...!" I exclaimed, "Yeah it is! Just a BIT~~~~~ sweeter."

"See? See?" Mom said, "Go on, it gets better!"

AMAZING!! It did work! Mom is a genius!!

I ate almost a whole cucumber that day. Plain.

Some time ago, i was at home making sushi. And yeah, i put cucumbers in them. For that extra crunch. And to make sure jasper and oliver get a serving of vegetables, however small.

I cut off a top frm one end and a little from the other. And I kept the cut ends. I took one cut part in my hand and rubbed one end of the cucumber with it.

Mom walked in at that moment. It had been more than 12 years since she first taught me that. She saw me rubbing cucumber and looked back at me.

"Hmm hmm!" she flashed a cheeky grin and walked out, leaving me standing there with a cucumber in my hand.

And i hate cucumbers.

... for the soul?

Campbell has come up with the best soup ever - Chicken Vegetable Medley. Basically, it's chicken soup with vegetables and large chunks of chicken in it. The stuff goes great with anything.

I almost began to believe, at one point, that i was ADDICTED to the stuff.

But then i realized it wasnt just me.

Just came home today frm a LONG LONG day at work. The airconditioning has been down for the 7th straight day. SEVENTH day. And dont forget, my office is a freakin metal container. At around 330pm, you could walk up to me, stick a fork in my ass and call me "Done". Even the water cooler water was beginning to get WARM. And that's a problem.

I had a shouting competition with the air-conditioning serviceman, demanding why is it that in the case of Samsung, there ISNT A SINGLE SPARE COMPRESSOR FAN IN THE WHOLE OF SINGAPORE. They gotta order frm overseas - that'll take 4 weeks.

WTF??? 4 weeks for a fucking compressor fan? I think they really take this Six Sigma crap a little too seriously over there.

Anyway, that aside, i was boiling when i got home. Thank god i had a can of Chicken Vegetable Medley. (Cue music as i pose smiling with the stuff. "Try it today!")

Well, i take a shower as the soup cooks in the microwave and when im done, so is the soup. I can already smell it as i enter the kitchen. I take it out of the microwave and a huge steamy cloud of homemade goodness fills the rooms.

Awesomeness.

The moment was SOOOOOOOOOO awesome, in fact, that SOMETHING had to spoil it. Now, i would've been cool with any kind of option.

1) I spill the soup and it's all gone.

2) I sneeze into the soup.

3) Aliens appear and steal my soup.

4) I spill the soup, and just as i'm about to catch it, i sneeze and as my eyes are closed, aliens appear and steal it.

Any combination. Fine with me.

But NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. The worse had to happen.

The cloud of steam had just emerged from the lid no more than 5 seconds, when suddenly, there was a LOUD PLOP and a huge drop of soup landed on my nose.

I scream. Not bcos of the soup on my nose, but bcos of the CAUSE.

I am not the only one who loves Campbell's Chicken Vegetable Medley.

Lizards love it too.

The bastard basically did a swan dive right into the centre of the bowl. He struggles, splashing about, trying to clutch onto a piece of carrot or tomato, but his efforts are in vain. He's too far from the edge of the bowl to make a swim for it.

The lizard is literally, in hot soup.

U can imagine my horror as i watch the light brown lizard turn white and stop struggling.

By the way, for those who are cooking-inclined, u probably know that when the meat is white, it's more or less DONE.

So yeah it was done. The little fucker had committed suicide in my soup. Rest in piece, you son of a bitch.

Other than that, it was a nostalgic day. The heat of the day makes you whoozy and u start looking at things in a dreamy state.

But no, i didnt watch the lizard struggle in the soup and go "Awwww..."

a lesson in pain...

The weekend sucked.

Woke up on Friday with a sharp pain in my right. I thought it was nothing. Got to work and it got worse and worse and worse. By the time dinner was over, and we were having drinks, it was actually FUCKING EXCRUCIATING. It actually hurt more when i was sitting down. And the whole dinner was spent on a stiff wooden frame chair.

No offence to the Boathouse. But i mean, it's called the BOATHOUSE. U'd expect the BOATHOUSE to have FUCKING AWESOME SEAFOOD, right? Apparently this is not so. I ordered the goddamn Atlantic pink snapper and when it arrived, the table was laughing. WTF??

MacDonald's fillet of fish had more fish in it than mine! I couldve finished that meal in 4 bites. FOUR FUCKING BITES!! Most fail fish ever. I have the worse luck with ordering food. Next time i'll just stick to the pasta. U cant go wrong with pasta.

Anyway, by the time we went for drinks, it felt like someone driving a red hot metal stake into side. And twisting it about. *twist twist twist* Get the picture?

A couple of drinks helped alleviate the pain slightly.

Got home and didnt sleep a wink. I think i slept 15min total that night. Tossed and turned until i realized the sun was up. Dragged myself to the doctor.

Doctor immediately suspected could be appendicitis. Oh Shit.

Thank god he gave me some painkillers to go with the bloodtests and all. It would take a day to confirm the results. But in the meantime, i should just monitor and if the pain gets so bad that the painkillers dont work, then i should just go straight to the hospital, the doctor said.

So basically i had to wait until i died or not. Spent the rest of the day eating oatmeal and porridge. OATMEAL AND PORRIDGE. Remember Oliver Twist? Yeah shit like that.

Thankfully, i was meeting someone at botanical gardens, and this forced me to drag myself out of bed and move my legs. My friend was also in pain, a different kind of pain. By the time we were having dinner, pain was almost gone. Amazing.

I guess exercise and movement are the best cures for any ailment. No more lying in bed.

Tennis sucked on Sunday too. Just wasnt moving right. Shitty weekend.

There had better be a good compensation for this. Like a million bucks in my duffel bag.

tragedy??

Holy shit it's been awhile.

Anyway, today's entry is about something that happened a week ago actually, but I kept getting distracted frm blogging abt it. It's about time.

I'm walking out on a late Sunday morning to fetch some ingredients for pasta. Dont ask me why but i had a craving for home-made pasta suddenly. Meatballs. Meatballs too. Too bad I live too far frm any Ikea to fulfil that end. Frozen beefballs would have to suffice.

But that's not the point.

The point came abruptly as I was walking down the slope leading away frm my apartment and suddenly I hear a MUFFLED scream, and a screech from a car, and a dull crunch, coming frm behind me. Actually it wasnt really a crunch. It was more like a squish, but with something in the middle.

You know they always talk about outside juicy inside crispy about some kind of snack or something? Yeah imagine something juicy on the outside with a crispy centre getting squashed and that's the sound it would make.

I'll give you some time to think about it.

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...

...

Done?

Ok, moving on.

So i turn around, and the muffled scream is actually from a lady INSIDE the car that came screeching to a halt. I have no idea what the hell is going on, but she's getting out of the car in a dreadful hurry. She scuttles over to the side of the car and starts half-sobbing and half-screaming to her husband (he's the driver).

Being a Singaporean PR, i am entitled to being kaypoh, so i cross the street and peer over to the side the hysterical lady was on.

Oh Man... They ran over a CAT.

Yeah, that sound u just imagined? That's the sound of a cat getting it's back broken by an SUV with GoodYear tyres. Guess it wasnt such a "good year" for the cat eh? hehehe... sorry abt that...

The lady is screaming "Oh my God! Oh No! This is terrible!!"

And the house opposite opens its gates. An old lady comes running out, and im thinking, "OMG! DRAMA!! Here's comes the confrontation!"

The lady stops at the sight of the cat and covers her mouth with her hands.

And yeah, she starts crying and screaming too.

BY THE WAY, THE CAT IS STILL ALIVE HOR. I can see the rise and fall of the chest and it meows softly. But stops after the old lady starts screaming for about 10 seconds. It died peacefully to the sound of two ladies screaming.

Im watching the drama, totally immersed in kaypoh-ishness.

The old lady asks what happened. Apparently the cat had ran across the road and had almost reached the other side when it saw the oncoming car. The driver tot the cat would run on and so it didnt slow down. Turns out the cat had forgotten his keys or something, and U-turned just before it reached the other side, totally surprising the driver.

And squish-crunch happened.

So the lady frm the car turns to the old lady and says "Im soooooooooooooo sorry about ur cat..." while sobbing.

And the old lady comes up with a CLASSIC LINE, "It's not my cat."

W-T-F???

I take a closer look and realize. ORH... it's a stray.

But i know this stray. The security guards frm my place feed it every now and then. So i hiked back up the hill to the guardhouse and inform the guards. The guard is distressed to say the least, and scampers to his part-time pet.

He doesnt cry, but u can tell he feels really BAD. He gets a black plastic bag and packages the corpse, for... ... i dunno, evidence... or something. The old lady gets out a bucket and washes the blood away.

And life goes on. Sobbing lady climbs into car and leaves. Old lady goes back into house and starts watching channel 8 comedy shows. Guard goes back to guardhouse and in a moving tribute to the dead cat, starts playing hip-hop bangra music. Fitting.

And i go to the NTUC.

Shit, i never knew there was so much blood in one cat... Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewww.... PASTA?

brief description of the Atkinson-Shiffrin memory model...

The Atkinson-Shiffrin model of memory paints a very chilling and robotic image of memories. Basically, our sensory organs transmit signals to our short-term memory (example, someone slapping you). Here, they're stored and then processed, inciting whatever appropriate response is necessary (example, "Fuck You!"). The short-term memory is likened to the cache memory of a computer, the highest and most volatile and most active part of the processor.

Long-term memory, is unlike a hard-disk however. Instead, the Atkinson-Shiffrin model puts forth that repetition of a short-term memory, (example, seeing Elvin's mug day-in-day-out) "imprints" this process onto the long-term memory. Triggering the long-term memory, then draws the sought memory onto the short-term, where again it is processed, inciting whatever appropriate response is necessary (example, "Damnit, u're ugly, Elvin!").

But this does not explain how SINGULAR events can create a lasting impression on people without repetition. It is argued that such events cause the sensory organs to be biased, transmitting SIMILAR signals to the short term, inciting the same long-term memory, regardless of how ugly Elvin really is.